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Your words lie, Your mind is stupid, Your mind does what your word say, Your hands take knives, Your neck bleeds, Your eyes grow dim with life, Your parents are sad and crying, Why do this? To get back at someone? Well, you didn't, You just left someone, Know who, Your love, Who now has no one. © 2001 Alex Ambrose
Dedicated to Tasha, The
person that keeps me here
You
helped me through hard times,
It is cold here, Like an Artic chill, My blood has no warmth, It has been poisoned by love and hate, All just a trap, A trap which ends in death, A trap made by me, I wonder if what I have is what I want, Or if I must leave to get what I want, I have enough, but yet, it seems wrong, I take things, All things, As if they we not important, All until they are always there for me, But I can still only see three feet in front of me, Only the stars and close friends are in the three feet of a circle.
© 2002 Alex Ambrose
A 14 Year old kid, Now heart-broken and severely depressed, Drinking to stop sobbing, Everything is so routine, It all changed today, He fell in that trap, He walked straight in to it, False Security, He has been in this trap before, His only friends were the stars, That society and fascist government were not him, He is looking for himself, Only to be stopped because he cannot see three feet in front of himself, He went on to find himself yet in a deeper trap, Also to find himself to never come back, All because of a dammed girl and drinking, Never to ask for change from a country that needs some.
© 2002 Alex Ambrose
All so depressed, All so routine, Nothing is alive, Nothing is dead, Everyone has the face of an enemy, Everyone has a war cry of god, All the same, All so routine.
© 2002 Alex Ambrose
Stuck in this place, Trapped and buried, Bleeding and beaten, No one knows where I am, I do not know the route here, Beautiful friends surround me, Friends like Britt, Nina, Chrissy, and Jim, Trying to pull me out of this trap, All I really want is just true friends to be there, Telling me memories, One close girl to see me here and make me enjoy life, Otherwise, I just keep digging by looking, As I become older, My skills and abilities sharpen, My mind is still out telling anything that comes to it, All this shall be shot down by the closing of the trap.
© 2002 Alex Ambrose For
Give me
Outside is cold snowing midnight air, Crisp to me, Walking along is not cold to me, The fire inside feeds the heat, Fire will eventually burst, Sitting out of life is ordinary for me, Told to "hold on" and "keep in touch" along with "distant" Can I help these raging cries, Not within my power; I can not Believe me not, Impossible to thee, Capture thoughts I might see, Reverse time cannot be, In my vision you are the one giving the fire love, <...uncontinued for the sake of the author...>
© 2002 Alex Ambrose
The people of never to be, Can see the rising moon, The brightness, To come ruin their world, The blindness from love, Upon which religion in stills, The fire of freedom still burns, Dim on thee, For it does not show, Thee will enjoy primal changes, Before their great brightness came, The disintegration of life, Can not eliminate the knowledge, Stored within her memory, For vital living information, This keeps the people living, Until, One great fortune, For the rock where they are living upon, Will destroy itself, To rid itself of the inferior race.
© 2002 Alex Ambrose
Blankets
for covering,
© 2003 Alex Ambrose
I am sorry it had to be this way, Told to be this way, No longer possible, My life ceases here, The last try, Only my knowledge remains, Worth all of nothing, If no one to share it with, If no one to love, My hearts, My palms sweaty, Head filling with thoughts of what to respond, The block of anger in place, My world is set, I once fell down, Nothing to say now, It wouldn't matter, Won't go away, Matters worse, The riffs of Jim's playing, Memory of love lost in a distant historical play.
© 2003 Alex Ambrose
From the Deep, Dark, Places, © 2003 Gary Kruger |
Not always the end,
Snow
is falling
Materialistic
Beings
Mother
nature never intended it to be this way,
Once
again America is going to suffer
By Chrissy Meinel
I can see people, They try not to see me, They are trying to change me, Always talking about useless information, All on how to "make myself a better person", I am fine the way I am now, I do not need to change; Just because I am different, No one needs to change...ever, Either you are born to be a burden on society; or not, Friendship is not forever, Neither is Love, But you will always be who you are now.
© 2002 Alex Ambrose
Nothing
More But Pain
I need a wing; No one will hand, I need a heart; No one will give, I need to be murdered; then brought back, I will damn the ones who haunted me, All is to cluttered, I can only concentrate on one, A new style fails; A new idea begins; I need that care; I need that hand; That no one will give.
(Sonnet #1)
Is love a pure emotion to be held, Or
a cage locked upon the one never quite felt, Can
you please find it beheld? Do
not need to be half-held to anymore melt, Shall
not go through woods just for sex, Could
I ever want another, A
relationship cannot be based on a hex, I
need someone here to discover, Not
just full of something to be lost, The
bottle is as empty as I am after the sever, Tis’
it not fair to be unleashed and tossed, Say
goodbye and be it a long never, The truth never to be seen, Can I never be mean? © 2002 Alex Ambrose
Why do I need an image, Of Pride and Beauty, Why up keep such an image, Of Sweetness and Love, Why should seeing me matter, To one who loves me, Be a Commoner, To Conform, My life never was a bed of roses, Get knocked down on my ass, As soon stability is achieved, I see what I chose will enlighten me, Devil's work at that, Not be able to explore like a 80 year old man can, Life is only a process of which to please the ones, Who see you, But also to cancel out the true love by conformity.
© 2002 Alex Ambrose
Why should I be bothered, For it is no harm for me, You are the one who does not look at what I feel, Nor can you sense it, You restored my wings of spirit & joy, But you tore them right off after I have made one mistake, To say you love me, And turn to the other side of the moon, Because I am not there, I formal letter was written to you, Explaining how I felt, But you won't get it until after this is written, You were the first one who I really loved, But for you, This must not have meant anything, For you to go, Fear me down, Miscommunicate, How am I suppose to feel, I know they are there to complete the feeling you use to love, Its not funny for me, I have to fake when I smile, I have to laugh with you, to keep you talking, Now you know, You have been wanting to hear this, I can not play any more, To continue would be my nightmare, New Year came, Not one response from you at all, 5 times I tried, Don't tell me you weren't home, I don't know what I did to you, Was I unfaithful in some way? Was I unpleasing in bed? You are the one backing out this time because, You are scared I would be the father of your baby, I hope you continue to do what you are doing, Showing it will be free will, Not just me, Don't say it just brings back memories, It seems I have heard them all, From bed to bed, From life to life, Do you really think I like hearing of your ex's, To hell I don't, I am going to back guys after this, Tell your mom I still do not believe in God, But that she was right, I am not the one for you, I am a terrible person, Ugly and to skinny, Not like I tried to be everything you wanted, Your mom is a smart woman, I always knew she was, But I hope your friend goes to hell if he kills anyone, If he is a Christian, I will also tell Josh all about this, He deserves to know, Not to mention, So should anyone else who wants to date you, That I can reach, I am sorry it had to turn out this way, But you set yourself up, You aren't the only one here who is hurt, There are many tear marks on this paper, Its not entirely your fault though, I am to blame for most, I couldn't always be there, I am a loser, And I am a jerk, I hope to the God & Goddess that you don't say, "I love you" to another man to whom you don't really mean it, I hope you have a better life than I will, At least you are beautiful, At least you can get guys you like, I had liked you for all those years. I basically idolized you, You helped me, But now I just am in a pit full of glass, You just tore me apart, Shattered me, And now, Will being me one step, ever more closer, To what I savor, As my final destiny.
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